Ha! I'm not perfect, never will! I'm a pain in the ass and i get excited over silly things! I have never create master plan for Life and I hate rules. I liveeveryday without any true purpose. I wake up, shower, eat, go to school and watch tv... Is always the same. From time to time it hits me... dude, I really need a plan, a goal of life, a passion, something.
And here is where I freak out... 29 and I am here in Puerto Rico. Can I close my eyes and tell you where I see myself in 5 years? NO! Can't even imagine in 6 months. Pathetic!!!
I haven't made plans lately bc Life have been mean to be when I try to come up with a plan. So i try my best to not pissed them off... Try my best to just live one day at a time.
I made plans once and I ended with 3 surgeries on my knee, a fucked up disk on my back and a nerve pinched. I ended having nightmares and I ended mad at God. So No, i dont do plans because I FEAR God will send something bad my way... Is funny how they say U r free... but the moment you turn your back at God something Bad happens... This means we are not free! But anyway... I Thank Him! And let's just think everything happens for a reason. 29 years later ... And we still dont know those reasons.
FEAR to disappoint my Father... HA! So freaking Funny... How many times he disappointed me? MANY TIMES... And here I am still trying to do right. What if Right means to do whatever is wrong right? Got you... U read that twice. Is ok!!
U want him to say Good girl, but he never did, he never will and Is ok! I love my father dont get me wrong! Is just different...
Fear of feeling inadequate! Ha! Aint that a bitch!
Life... Is full of surprises, fears, disappointments, laughs, cries, and journeys... Dont let a fool get you to fear yourself to the point where You don't even know where you can turn when something goes wrong!
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