I think I'm missing a part of me...

THERE IS A PART OF MY SOUL MISSING, THERE IS A PART OF ME COMPLETELY LOST... THERE IS DARK AND TWISTED THOUGHTS, THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT AINT HAPPY WITH WHAT I GOT. I CAN'T BE GREEDY BUT I CAN'T LIE EITHER... I HAVE A LOT, MAYBE MORE THAN WHAT I ASK GOD, AND STILL AFTER 4 YEARS OF GOOD STUFF GOING ON IN MY LIFE, STILL SOMETHING MISSING ON MY HEART AND IS NOT ABOUT RELIGION, AND IS NOT ABOUT GOD... I HAVE CARS, I HAVE MONEY, I TRAVEL THE WORLD, I VE BEEN IN PLACES THAT ONLY PEOPLE CAN SEE ON TV, I WENT THERE AND I HAVE BEEN IN IT... NOW WHEN I SEE IT ON TV, I CAN SAY LOUD AND PROUD I WAS THERE... STILL SOMETHING IS MISSING ON MY LIFE... IN THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT, ON THE DARKNESS OF MY ROOM, WHEN NOONE IS LOOKING I CRY LIKE A LITTLE BABY AND I ASK GOD FOR GUIDANCE... I MIGHT NOT BE PERFECT, I MIGHT NOT ALWAYS BE NICE, I MIGHT BE RUDE AND SOMETIMES I MIGHT BE A PAIN IN THE ASS, BUT NEVER LET THOSE THINGS CHANGE THE WAY U THINK ABOUT THE REAL ME...CUZ ONLY CLOSE AND REAL FRIENDS KNOW THE REAL ME...

PPL SEE ME AND AUTOMATICALLY MADE THE WRONG CONCLUSION, PPL SEES MY TATTOOS AND THINK I'M THAT CRAZY CHICK... PPL HEARD MY FUNNY ACCENT AND THINK I'M DUMB... WELL I HAVE MORE EDUCATION THAN WHAT U KNOW!

THERE IS A BROKEN HEART I HAVEN'T BE ABLE TO RESTART, I PUT IT TOGETHER LONG TIME AGO, I PUT A BAND AID AND MOVE ON, I LOCK IT AND I FORGOT ABOUT IT, I TOLD MYSELF I WILL LOOK FOR IT WHEN THE TIME IS THE PERFECT ONE, IT'S BEEN ALMOST 5 YEARS SINCE THE LAST, AND I'M OK NOW. BUT STILL THERE IS SOMETHING MISSING AND I CAN'T FIND WHAT IS IT! I MADE A LOT OF JOKES, I'M SILLY 90% OF THE TIME, I HATE TALKING BOUT LOVE AND I HAVE 2 CRAZY FRIENDS THAT TELL ME ALMOST EVERYTHING ABOUT THEIR LOVE, AND SOMETIMES I TELL MYSELF I DONT WANT THAT, AND THERE IS OTHER TIME WHEN I SEE GREY'S THAT I WANT IT...

LOVE SUCKS, BUT I CAN'T TELL U WHAT IS IT CUZ BY EXPERIENCE I HAVEN'T FOUND IT YET... WE SOMETIMES CONFUSED LOVE AND HIS DEFINITION... BUT TO TELL U THE TRUTH WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE REAL THING ABOUT LOVE AND WE ALL GET CONFUSED...

I MISSING A LOT ON LIFE, BUT I NEED TO LEARN TO APPRECIATE WHAT I GOT NOW, AND MAYBE GOD AND LIFE WILL GIVE ME WHAT I WANT WHEN I VALUE WHAT I GOT TODAY IN MY HANDS!!!

MISSING A PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS BE AN ISSUE AND THE TRUTH MIGHT BE, THAT I M NOT MISSING ANYTHING, IS ME THAT IS NOT SEEING WHAT IS NEXT TO ME!

CP

Interview with the FBI

My interview with me FBI:

 

 "Ms. Cancela tell me about your experience in the USAF, and how that time serving your country will help you to be success on the FBI"- ASKED THE AGENT. "Well, I know how to pack a box, I know how to do security check , you know like TSA, I know how to put people on a bus, I know how to drive a forklift, I know how to label a box, I'm an expert on the MSN Messenger, I kn...ow the in and outs of a copy machine, I know how to deal with customers, I write 40 wpm on the messenger, I know ppl from the ports, people from the moving company, I know how to make your move smoothly, I know how to file papers, I know how to watch You Tube, I know how to book flights, cancel flights, I know everything about classified shipments, I know how to make a Wood box, how to cut wood, hammer, Print a label, do Power POint presentations, I know how to clean bldg, clean bathrooms, vaccuum, I do an excelent job when it comes to crystal doors, yeah I'm so good they called me "MARIA" uh huh! Oh and I have expert markmanship with my M16 three times, I got 43,46,48 scores with my M16. And I'm certified under the program S.TA.R. and certified with my 9MM" -ME "O_o"- FBI AGENT....

 

LMAO... This is how my mind goes... all day long!! Imagine funny stuff.

 

 

DINDY

AROUND THE WORLD

DESDE ADENTRO...

Hay momentos en nuestra vida donde situaciones llegan y ni sabemos que hacer.  Hay momentos en donde tenemos que decidir cual es el proximo paso a seguir, y no solo tenemos miedo, si no tambien tenemos confusión.  Las decisiones que tomamos hoy, pueden ser un camino de destrucción en un mañana.  Es curioso y contradictorio, el tener que entender que "todo pasa por alguna razón", pero si tomamos la decisión equivocada todo se irá a la mierda.

¿Cómo saber que está bien y que está mal?  Díficil de entender, díficil de creer, manteniendo una mente sana, es donde todo lo que se creía correcto se vuelve polemico. 
Si tuviese que callar mi mente, y mi corazón en estos momentos no estaría en donde estuviese que estar...
Solo me queda el pensar, el corazón y tres lágrimas. las cuales conservo para el momento en donde pueda yo lograr ver un poco más del más alla!!!

Amor, virtud, y un sudor de frente que se pierde entre tanta gente... Dolor eterno, que solo Dios, y yo conocemos, en mi interior solo hay sueños incompletos, un montón de rencor, y poca fe para aquel que en algún me hizo creer que yo podría ser más de lo que se debía ser...


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