I think I'm missing a part of me...

THERE IS A PART OF MY SOUL MISSING, THERE IS A PART OF ME COMPLETELY LOST... THERE IS DARK AND TWISTED THOUGHTS, THERE IS A PART OF ME THAT AINT HAPPY WITH WHAT I GOT. I CAN'T BE GREEDY BUT I CAN'T LIE EITHER... I HAVE A LOT, MAYBE MORE THAN WHAT I ASK GOD, AND STILL AFTER 4 YEARS OF GOOD STUFF GOING ON IN MY LIFE, STILL SOMETHING MISSING ON MY HEART AND IS NOT ABOUT RELIGION, AND IS NOT ABOUT GOD... I HAVE CARS, I HAVE MONEY, I TRAVEL THE WORLD, I VE BEEN IN PLACES THAT ONLY PEOPLE CAN SEE ON TV, I WENT THERE AND I HAVE BEEN IN IT... NOW WHEN I SEE IT ON TV, I CAN SAY LOUD AND PROUD I WAS THERE... STILL SOMETHING IS MISSING ON MY LIFE... IN THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT, ON THE DARKNESS OF MY ROOM, WHEN NOONE IS LOOKING I CRY LIKE A LITTLE BABY AND I ASK GOD FOR GUIDANCE... I MIGHT NOT BE PERFECT, I MIGHT NOT ALWAYS BE NICE, I MIGHT BE RUDE AND SOMETIMES I MIGHT BE A PAIN IN THE ASS, BUT NEVER LET THOSE THINGS CHANGE THE WAY U THINK ABOUT THE REAL ME...CUZ ONLY CLOSE AND REAL FRIENDS KNOW THE REAL ME...

PPL SEE ME AND AUTOMATICALLY MADE THE WRONG CONCLUSION, PPL SEES MY TATTOOS AND THINK I'M THAT CRAZY CHICK... PPL HEARD MY FUNNY ACCENT AND THINK I'M DUMB... WELL I HAVE MORE EDUCATION THAN WHAT U KNOW!

THERE IS A BROKEN HEART I HAVEN'T BE ABLE TO RESTART, I PUT IT TOGETHER LONG TIME AGO, I PUT A BAND AID AND MOVE ON, I LOCK IT AND I FORGOT ABOUT IT, I TOLD MYSELF I WILL LOOK FOR IT WHEN THE TIME IS THE PERFECT ONE, IT'S BEEN ALMOST 5 YEARS SINCE THE LAST, AND I'M OK NOW. BUT STILL THERE IS SOMETHING MISSING AND I CAN'T FIND WHAT IS IT! I MADE A LOT OF JOKES, I'M SILLY 90% OF THE TIME, I HATE TALKING BOUT LOVE AND I HAVE 2 CRAZY FRIENDS THAT TELL ME ALMOST EVERYTHING ABOUT THEIR LOVE, AND SOMETIMES I TELL MYSELF I DONT WANT THAT, AND THERE IS OTHER TIME WHEN I SEE GREY'S THAT I WANT IT...

LOVE SUCKS, BUT I CAN'T TELL U WHAT IS IT CUZ BY EXPERIENCE I HAVEN'T FOUND IT YET... WE SOMETIMES CONFUSED LOVE AND HIS DEFINITION... BUT TO TELL U THE TRUTH WE WILL NEVER KNOW THE REAL THING ABOUT LOVE AND WE ALL GET CONFUSED...

I MISSING A LOT ON LIFE, BUT I NEED TO LEARN TO APPRECIATE WHAT I GOT NOW, AND MAYBE GOD AND LIFE WILL GIVE ME WHAT I WANT WHEN I VALUE WHAT I GOT TODAY IN MY HANDS!!!

MISSING A PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS BE AN ISSUE AND THE TRUTH MIGHT BE, THAT I M NOT MISSING ANYTHING, IS ME THAT IS NOT SEEING WHAT IS NEXT TO ME!

DINDY