I have so many thoughts, so many feelings. They get mixed, sometimes they cross each other, but they never are on the same page! I want my head where my heart is! And I want my heart where my head is. Maybe and I said maybe that way I can make any sense, Maybe and just maybe I can get to the point where I can see clear, maybe I can understand myself. What do I really want? A question that I asked myself every single night while I rest on my bed. Things have lost interest, things have just become things with no importance, people has become a pain in the ass, and there is days I don't even want the light shine against my body. Light sometimes hurt my vision and give me headaches. Darkness has become a thing in my life, which I'm not ashamed to say, but I like and I enjoy more and more everyday. My heart is screaming for help, my life is slipping out of my hands and I'm don't know how to grab it again. Is like a slow motion, go around me in such motion. I can see everything, but nothing make sense. I've been trying to get stable, but unstability is what I grew up with. Moving every 6 months, every year... God, I have lost myself in this mess, and now I'm looking for it and I haven't been successful on that mission cuz I can't find it anymore. People tell me to be strong... I said is ok, I will be more positive.
Letting fears go, and embracing victory...an easy say but such hard mission to accomplish to make...
Dindy
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