WHEN I WAS LITTLE

When I was little life wasn't easy.  When I was little I wanted to grow faster.  When I was little I asked myself if things were going to be the same.  When I was little I was my daddy's little punching bag.  When I was little I never could understand.  When I was little I closed my eyes and wished for my life to end.  When I was little, I hope someone took me away.  When I was little I lost my first best friend.  When I was little I had to wait until 3am outside the bar so my father could get drunk.  When I was little I helped my mom take care of them.  When I was little I was already a grown up.  When I was little I had responsibilities of a 20 years old girl.  When I was little there was no time for games.  When I was little I went from place to place.  When I was little I hated him so much.  When I was little a part of me got lost. 

Now that I am a grown up I can only look back and understand how much pain, how much damage actions and words from the parents can do to a person... I grew up and I thank God I'm not a complete screwed up.  I'm not perfect, but at least I don't go around pretending...